Frankie Weiss and Her Magic

Epilogue without a prologue

Suddenly, I understood (nothing) was meant to be…euthanized! I was not prepared for this unholy prognosis. Johnnie was never sick one day of her entire nine years since she and Frankie had become my “children,” companions and soul mates on November 27, 1997. How could I, her loving Mr. Mom allow my “child” to be euthanized? She was a part of Frankie’s and my life all these wonderful, happy years, our playmate, our bed partner.

I was more than confused, I was hurt, and I was sick; as Johnnie’s Mr. Mom for all these happy and wonderful years…I had to sign a form giving them the permission to put my cherished child, to death. To remove her physical being from Frankie and me and never to look upon her beautiful face again? The world I lived in for so long since their adoption…was coming apart.

My mind was racing…what would her absence do to Frankie? How would I feel going home with an empty cage knowing I had signed Johnnie’s death warrant? I looked at Johnnie on the steel examination table, I again looked at the X-rays…the tears began to flow, as I understood with my losing her, I was going to lose the part of my heart that held her loving precious closeness to me.

The lady Vet, Jill and I spoke about her being cremated; she gently asked me if I wanted Johnnie’s ashes, I answered…no. Having her in my heart and in the many pictures taken during her years with Frankie was enough memory for me. The ashes would not console me…only time would lessen the unexpected hurt and loss of Frankie’s companion and playmate and that of my “child”…a beautiful female Tabby cat, I named Johnnie.

Jill, left the room and soon reappeared with a form authorizing the cremation. With tears in my eyes and a sudden feeling of terrible hurt in my heart I applied my signature to the form.

She again left the examination room to give me some time with Johnnie. I looked at this feline with flowing tears that recalled our closeness and the realization that it was the time for me to say goodbye to a four-legged beautiful Tabby cat that had shared my home with Frankie and held a deep, never to be forgotten place in my heart. Giving Johnnie a gentle hug, kissing the top of her head and telling her I will always love you. I closed the mesh door to the carrier and took it with me as I left the examination room.

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